Resolution
Tomorrow morning Dylan starts a new job. I thought our separation would be a month long. The month is over. I wrote pleading with him to come home and help. And then the answer came.
I’m relieved. I’m tired.
When Dylan left for Idaho, he didn’t realize how much work there was to do. I didn’t either. The things we ignored scrawled across five pages. With the help of friends, five pages have whittled away to one double-spaced sheet, but before the check marks are finished a new list begins: packing.
Our tentative moving date is Labor Day weekend, three weeks away. Three weeks to paint and hammer. Three weeks to pack. Three weeks until I embrace my beloved. Three weeks to say good-bye…
The merging of endings and beginnings is uncomfortable. Sometimes I can’t wait to start the next chapter. These pages are heavy though. Trying to shut them strains my determination and my persistence. I want to just sit here with words spread around and peruse the reminders of all that has happened and all that we have imagined.
The climax of our decade in Texas has already been written though. I’m living in the dénouement, the resolution. May I finish strong with arms lifted toward Heaven praising God for all he has done.
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I hesitated to publish my last post, but your prayers encouraged me and your stories touched me. Thank you.
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New adventure, new dreams…your kids have great guidance; here and there ^ .
Good thoughts and prayers heading your way, Renae!
.-= Susan´s last blog ..This ‘n That =-.
This is great news! Moves are hard. But they allow for so much growth….And I am always blessed and embarrassed by how faithful my friends are. It sounds like you have wonderful friends who have joined you on this journey. And I am convinced that a whole new set of people await you in your new place…People that will open new chapters with you and journey with you on your adventures. He makes all things beautiful in his time and it seems like you are moving into a place of rest. Try to embrace this transition…and with just a few more pushes your life in a new place will be unfolding.
blessings
.-= Nicole Wetzel´s last blog ..Looking for Naomi =-.
Nicole,
Yes, I am incredibly blessed with friends. And today a man from our church came over to see what I had left to do on the house. He’s going to finish everything! He told me to go play with my kids. I thank God for showing me his love through his people.
Where are you moving to in Idaho? We lived there for 7 years and know some homeschooling families. Good luck!
.-= Wendy´s last blog ..Beautiful Fall Day =-.
Wendy,
We are moving to the Twin Falls area. We actually have quite a few friends there who homeschool. Where did you live?
Renae,
It sounds as though you are starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I was glad to hear that my post had given you some encouraging.
It seems as though we have gone through a lot of the same valleys and light elluding journeys lately. I am happy to read that you are beginning to get some peace.
I will keep you in my prayers.
.-= Michele´s last blog ..the hens on my new roost =-.
Michele,
Yes, I think so. We don’t know where we are going to live and our house isn’t sold, but things are falling into place.
Thank you so much for your prayers.
I hesitate to share the dark times, yet when I bare my doubts and struggles others are blessed. Perhaps, it is in those trying times we actually see the most clearly, because we truly understand where our hope lies.
Renae, I hope that you have a smooth move. We just moved last weekend….not easy, but necessary. My husband does not have a job here, but we know by the way things worked out (had a terrible time finding a decent rental house, but God found us a great one just in time) that this is where we’re supposed to be right now, and He has a plan for us here. I know the same will be true for your family. Hang in there :)
.-= Barbara Frank´s last blog ..Fasten Your Seat Belts…… =-.
Wishing you all the best with your move!
Thankful for God’s provisions and the new job for Dylan. Praying that He continues to light the path that He would have ya’ll to follow and for the wonderful people that He allows to cross your path.
.-= Kiva, Farmstead Lady´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday – Butterflies =-.
I will pray for you my friend. Your posts are always so heartful and pure, this one is especially so.
Blessings to you and your family, Renae.
I hope your move goes smoothly and things work out well for you all in Idaho.
.-= Denese´s last blog ..The Earth Brought Forth Trees Yielding Fruit =-.
I’m so happy your DH has found a job. Sorry it involves moving from all those you know. But know God goes with you into any situation.
.-= kris´s last blog ..Saddling Up! =-.
Ah, moving. The stressful, funny, “why did we ever keep this stuff?” time. God bless you!
-Christine
Godspeed and peace for your journey.
“Cease striving and know that I am God.” Ps. 46:10
.-= Jennifer in OR´s last blog ..Boy’s eye view of science =-.
Thinking of you and wondering how moving weekend went… Texas won’t be the same without you.
.-= Amanda´s last blog ..A Conglomeration of Information =-.
Amanda,
Well, I’m still here in Texas. I’m not sure when we’ll get to Idaho. We are basically waiting for our house to sell.
I remember the sadness when my beloved was miles away – every week – for 8 months – traveling 4 hours away and the sadness of parting on Sunday afternoons. It was a hard time. I also remember when he was across the world – over the sea – for two months in Iraq… I grieve for you and totally understand that feeling! Prayers that you are home where you belong soon.
Texas will miss you. I lament that we couldn’t get together and spend more time getting to know each other – since Idaho is not on my list of places we’ll most likely ever be. :(
But if we do, I’ll certainly look you up! Until then, you will always be my invisible friend that I actually got to meet once!
.-= sprittibee´s last blog ..Fearless =-.
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